“I Was Completely Broken” Camila Cabello Reveals Her Pain At Leaving 5H In Emotional Letter
15 May 2017, 11:26 | Updated: 4 December 2018, 16:18
The star announced her debut album by explaining how she felt after leaving Fifth Harmony.
Since Camila Cabello’s shock departure from Fifth Harmony in December last year, her solo career has gone from strength to strength, and the star announced her debut solo album with an emotional open letter to her fans.
Camila described how her new record came about, and her feelings around the time she decided to quit the band, and how she overcame the pain and sadness.
She wrote, “The first song from my forthcoming album “the hurting the healing the loving” will come out on 5.19.17… [it] is the story of my journey from darkness into light, from a time when I was lost to a time when I found myself again.
05.19.17 pic.twitter.com/oFbpneJSlV— Camila Cabello (@Camila_Cabello) May 15, 2017
“The story behind the album starts with the second song that you’ll hear called “I Have Questions” which I started writing in a hotel bathroom on tour a little over a year ago. I was completely broken during that time, I was in the kind of pain that’s uncomfortable to talk about, and it was the kind of chapter you never want to read out loud…
“I couldn’t write another song for 6 months because writing meant I had to feel everything, and I wasn’t ready to do that yet, so when I graduated from hotel bathrooms to studios to make my first album, I was making music about everything BUT what I was going through, it was like a secret burning on my tongue and for some reason I could not get myself to say it.
“Till one day I just could not run anymore. I pulled up the lyrics from the year before and ‘I Have Questions’ was written. After that I wrote a sad song everyday, everything I wanted to say, every lyric on my phone, I said everything until I got tired of writing about it, until I was sick of the sad songs!!!!
“As I got happier and happier, I realised the songs were getting happier and happier and I realised I wasn’t making music just to make an album anymore, I was making this music to heal.
“It wasn’t until I had made enough songs to listen back to and realised I could hear myself coming back through these songs. I didn’t write with the intention of delivering a message but I realised the message as in the hurting, the healing and the loving.
“I might have thought the hurting was my enemy before but she became the best listener… I might have thought I was too impatient for the healing, and it did feel like sometimes she was taking forever, but I realised it made me appreciate her so much more when she arrived, and the loving, I wouldn’t have known how beautiful she was if I couldn’t miss her all that time.”
Camila’s debut solo album comes after the success of her collaboration with Shawn Mendes on ‘I Know What You Did Last Summer’ and her hit track ‘Bad Things’ with Machine Gun Kelly.
It sounds like “I Have Questions” might give an insight into what really happened between her and the rest of Fifth Harmony – and we’re already excited to hear it!
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