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Cheryl Cole has been opening up to pals after being left ‘hanging around’ with regards to her spot on the US X Factor show just weeks after setting up home in L.A
According to the Mirror Newspaper, Cole has said to friends: "I feel like I've had enough. I want to go home. On the outside I'm smiling, inside I'm crying. I feel as if I'm being torn in so many different directions. Simon wants me to do one thing, but others expect me to do something else - I don't know who I am anymore.
"I keep getting told to smile, smile, smile - to show more hair and teeth - but it's hard when I feel so sad on the inside. The more stressed I get, the more I smile because that's what people want from me. I just don't know what to do."
A source added: "Cheryl is feeling bombarded. The paps are everywhere, hounding her, and she is getting so many calls daily from friends, family, work colleagues and people she barely knows, all wanting her undivided attention. Cheryl's a tough cookie and she will be okay."